I really savour writing about my travels on my blog, it’s like clasping a memory very tightly and having the ability to release it along with a sparkle of nostalgia whenever I please. That being said, I’ve been extremely sentimental recently about a specific trip I had about a year ago. At the end of March last year back in high school, several students with chaperons and I headed out to Dublin, Ireland to represent our school at a Model United Nations conference. It’s by far one of my favorite weeks ever and I constantly remember it with a smile. I just knew I was going to have a wonderful time in Ireland when I had an entire conversation with the Irish Customs Man and he said: “So, you’re going to solve the world’s problems, eh? You go girl!”
Blessings and Hilarity Ensue
My anxiety over the course of the last semester really had me clinging to my comfort zone in many ways. I spent most of it in my cozy room, happy with the constant peace. Shortly after, my serenity was put to a quick halt, causing me to realize I was using it as a shield and not experiencing enough of the world around me. It’s funny, I’m quite different than the person I was upon my arrival to Germany, it’s lovely how pushing yourself can really change everything.
“We don’t make mistakes, just happy little accidents.”
― Bob Ross
We can be pretty hard on ourselves, can’t we? I’m not sure why but in an essence, I think it’s because of how society functions. You’ll be told that no one is perfect and that’s exactly how it should be. But then again, it’s still perfection-obsessed whether we like it or not and a lot of the time, people are identified for something they’ve done wrong. Let’s admit it, mistakes make for juicer gossip sessions. Having a misstep can be an agonizing experience for a lot of us but if you know about me and my blog, you know I prefer changing perspective.
Ironically enough, ever since my last guide about decreasing your anxiety, I’ve been somewhat of a mess. Anxiety took over with my exams right around the corner and the desperation of passing with an overall great percentage. My social interactions this month have also taken a big toll on me and I was actually awoken, in a terrifying manner, by sheer panic one night. I was so proud to say that I didn’t get any severe panic attacks for months but being in a new place completely different from your own mixed with university stress can really get your anxiety going.
Overall, my first semester abroad has been quite the odd one but more on that later. Other than that, it has been an extremely rewarding experience. I’ve learned so much about myself and the world around me in a pretty short time, especially in regard to my unease and fears. Today, I hope to once again share my knowledge with you in order to help others through my blog. Whether you have anxiety or not, these tips should help you regardless.
Anxiety, a word that I’ve grown intimate with since middle school. Panic, it’s partner in crime, they both go hand in hand in completing their dominance. Attack, their method of control, overused year after year and when I’m most vulnerable. This has been the story of my life for the past few years now, it was especially bad at the beginning of high school. I had difficulties with the little things like speaking on the phone and ordering food. I would get immensely embarrassed over little things like tripping and I remember I would actually hold in my coughs to not attract attention.
It’s something I never thought I could get over or decrease whatsoever, I was afraid it had transformed me into someone different that I would never be able to change back from. Things worked my way though, through my comedy speeches and some hard work and experimentation, I’m a lot better now. That’s why I’m writing this today, in hopes of my advice and experience helping you out, regardless of whether you have anxiety or not. I also hope to provide some advice that will be split into parts and that’s in a new direction than most guides. On with the show!
We sure love starting over don’t we? Just the thought of the new year gets us excited. It has always meant a fresh start, new experiences and memories to look forward to. When you think new year, you immediately think of bettering yourself, starting a diet maybe? Finally going to the gym long term? Beginning that book you’ve been wanting to write for years? Maybe even travel the world like you’ve always planned? I strongly remember a teacher back in the 5th grade explaining to us the importance of flourishing as a person every year through resolutions and ever since, I’ve always tried to have and maintain them. And for as long as I can remember, as has everyone else, but just how good are you at keeping your resolutions from start to the very finish?
Don’t you hate it when you remember all your 2015 resolutions and you suddenly realize you have four days to lose ten pounds? – Ray William Johnson
People are constantly walking in and out of your life all through out. How many times have you thought someone was going to always be there for you through thick and thin? Thought they would be by your side through life for a relatively long time? Thought they understood you the most out of everyone you knew around? Only to look back at the past and remember how different your impression once was. Unfortunately, I would say that almost everyone has had a surprising revelation that someone wasn’t who they thought they were, leading to disappointment and a lot of thinking needed be done.
This post is a lot harder for me to write than I thought because of the recent issues that I’ve been facing. As a new university student, there’s just been so much going on with me as a person and surroundings. Decisions have to be constantly made in regard to how I manage my time, energy, money, and relationships. The latter, unsurprisingly, has been the most difficult to handle and has brought me the most unease and stress. Continue reading “The Ones We Let Go of”
Though they’re a part of you, they’re used against you every day. A weakness could be your mindset, attitude, or even appearance. A lot of us consider what we don’t like about ourselves as our failings because we believe that they’re putting us down as we go about our lives. This was all such a massive part of my life back when I was in high school when I was trying to find myself in a pool of doubtfulness.
I used to think about this during my first few weeks here in Germany when I first attended my Business English class and we were discussing how to properly give answers during an interview. Our lecturer was specifically worried about the usual dangerous “what is your greatest weakness?” question. This really had me thinking about what exactly a flaw is and how you can turn it into your favor. Continue reading “Supposedly a Weakness”
Being both socially anxious and an extrovert can be a very odd experience. Though you want to interact with others, it’s pretty unpleasant and difficult. I have experienced this myself since my middle school years. It’s almost like there’s always something I want to express or say but due to fear and constant worry, I never can.
Though I’ve gotten better at controlling all of this since then through my stand up comedy acts and public speaking in high school, it’s still constantly by my side on a daily basis. This blog is just going to be my way of dealing with my anxiety through rambling, which is something I do best.